Oh, the joys of parenthood. For a mother, you carry this baby inside of you for 9 months. You focus on your health and well-being, because it is the health and well-being of your child now. You love it from the second you find out about it, and then when the time comes, you can’t believe you could love something that you’ve only just met so much. Then you bring the baby home, and BOOM! you’re on your own. What will you do about ALL THOSE FEEDING sessions? But you figure it out. You’re a mom now, it’s just what you do.
Now- I would like to say that my child sleeps through the night, and has for a long time, but that’s really not always the case. She has surprised us a few times and gave us a break, but usually I still have at least 1 middle of the night feeding session, and it happens right around 3am. A part of me has really grown to enjoy this feeding. Here’s why.
It’s quiet at 3am. Eerily quiet. Well, except when I’m straggling back to bed and Elvis (our dog) decides to bark at me. I walk from one side of the house to the other, with no distractions, nothing. There is no noise, no crying, people talking, television playing. It’s just peaceful.
It’s also amazing how you see your house from a different perspective in the middle of the night. I’m not worried about the dishes in the sink, or the fact that I forgot to vacuum the carpet the day before. I am overcome with thankfulness to have a roof over my head, and a family that loves me so much, and to be under this dwelling with all of them, together.
One of the things I love the most about this time is that I once again get to snuggle with my daughter. I know it won’t be like this forever, and although it can be hard at times, having that extra time with her does something for my heart. Those snuggles. That alone time is different from the day to day activities. We are together, I am providing for her, and helping her go back to sleep at the same time. That’s the good stuff!
I again know there will come a time that this won’t happen anymore, or things will be different, so right now, I’ll cherish those middle of the night feedings.. I’ll cherish my supply of coffee in the mornings, too!